The trick was to imagine what you are worried about, placing it inside a box. put a bow on it and send it up to God, releasing that worry from your mind and trusting God to deal with it. I don't know if Chase was listening, but I sure was. I don't worry often, but there are things that do weigh on my mind. Most of the time these things seems to weigh on my mind for a while. I do the right thing and say things like "God's got this" and move on.
Lately, however the final cost for our adoption has been weighing on my mind. I know I can trust God to provide all that we need, but we need approximately $18,000 before we travel to China. Yesterday we got word from our agency that we are out of review and are not awaiting LOA. This is a big step towards being able to travel. It has brought the worry about finances to the forefront as it makes you realize just how little time we have until we may be heading to China.
So this morning, during my personal prayer time. I took my worry about our adoption finances, imagined putting them in a box, putting a bow on it, and sending it up to God. I was released of this worry and it was in Gods hands now.
You would think at this point I would have predicted the outcome, as God has been nothing but faithful through every step of our adoption. But when Amanda called me this afternoon, I was speechless.
"Did you know we were getting a grant from Families Outreach?"
I am big enough to realize when God is moving. He took a devotion with my 3 year old to remind me that He has got this, and that I don't need to worry. Seriously, how many times do I need to learn this lesson?
While the check for $3,000 isn't enough to cover the balance of our fees, it is enough to remind me that He is ALWAYS faithful, even when I am not. I love the little winks that the Lord gives us along the way reminding us of His faithfulness.